Friday, April 19, 2013

Adulteress B Redeemed


This has been in my heart and finally without fear, I can release it. Inspired by several books Romans, Ecclesiastes, & Jeremiah. 

You adulteress how's make fools of yourselves, u stand in the house of God, yet ur ways r wicked. U say with ur mouth that u love God, but ur actions are filthy. Filthy as rags. Your ways r corrupt, thoughts r sinful. U know the Word. You've been taught, uv heard, uv taught about the great Love who has created u, u sing out loud, throw ur hands up in the air, u kneel down to pray, and u go to the alter. 
These r lies, because u turned against, put aside, ignored the truth. No in fact u are a liar, to urself. LoVe knows u never did. U set aside the truth to pick up ur idol. The idol of want, what u dont have, what u wish u had but dont, this is ur idol. U dont love, stop pretending.
This which u have chosen will follow u and ur children and grandchildren, the falseness, and fake ways r detestable, sick and disgusting.
Denial to oneself, u heap judgement and condemnation on Ur own head. No one condemns u, but ur actions do. No one judges u, but ur actions do. U have turned away and committed adultery against Ur maker. U backslide into a place of death, ur path is changed forever, u take the easy wide road, but were instructed to take the narrow.   Ur Attempts to make money, have pleasure, build a house, do good, but it leaves u empty and lonely and alone. No one is left for u, because u choose to backslide from the truth and Love.
Your evil and the show U've put on, the words u spoke were all in vain, because u don't believe them and never did. 
Now ur children will watch u and emulate what u do,they will follow in ur ways. U have lead them down the path of death. Unsaved,  u have done this. U brought urself here to this place of judgement. U have no one to blame but u. It's no ones fault but urs, u adulteress.
Do u have hope to come out of this, and live a good and right and honorable life? It's a lie. U lie to urself. Life won't get better as u drink from the cup of the evil one. He will rule ur home, u will watch ur children drink from this cup also, and their children will drink also.
Turn away from the ways of the world, and turn back to Love. Stop drinking from the up of evil, and drink from Love.
 Look at ur heart, it wants freedom, but will only be in bondage and chains of trouble. It will follow u and u walk in it. All ur ways r trouble, and will remain trouble all of ur days.
Seeds were planted, but your soil is shallow soil and thorns chocked it out.
Dig deeper, and pull the thorns, remove the world, open ur eyes to see, soften ur heart, u cant because ur heart is so hard, u will watch ur heart that uv planted in ur children become hard, even harder than urs. 
When u are old and alone and no ne left, u will have much regret and remorse as all ur children will have hearts of stone, u will cry but no one will listen because u chose this wide path.
The encouragers who u listened to will desert u-they too were on the path wide. While the people on the narrow, u avoid and shun away. The narrow path walkers make u remember just how adulterous u are against Love.  They remind u of the truth u once taught, but never really believed. U are a fake, u are a hypocrite.
Turn away from this foolishness and turn toward Love. Get off the path of death and choose to walk in Love on the path narrow. Ur fruit is bitter, it looked good once, but now no one can eat ur fruit. They walk past the tree and refuse ur bitter fruit.
U may fool the small minded and the babies drinking milk, but u don't fool those who eat meat, and those who see u for who u are. They don't judge u, the judgment u feel u have heaped upon urself. They don't condemn u, that is indeed by the work of ur own hands.
Ur temple is slowly filling with dirt and waste, soon u will hate urself, and will try to escape try to make urself clean, but u choose hatred instead of Love. Love can't survive where it's not wanted. The aroma of hatred will pour from u and push away all those who Love. 
It is time to repent, and renew urself to Love. Submit that u know nothing and ways ur evil, tell Love how uv wronged, lied, and suffocated and lead astray those who do love.
Go to the alter, this time announce to ur church how U've sinned against them and ask them for forgiveness. Tell them the truth, that u never knew Love. That it was all a big charade to cover the truth. Tell them ur ways have been evil and in vain because u rejected Love. Tell them u are a adulterer against Love. They will have compassion on u, and they will wrap their arms and prayers around u and lift u up. Do it before the wide path consumes u and takes u forever.
Repent, to Love.  Raise your standards in the ways u were taught. Go renew ur strength in Love. Go to ur closet and pray and hope for redemption and forgivness.  Tell Love ur ways r wrong and want the narrow path. 
Go repent before it's too late.
Ur back sliding will only be long enough for u to fall, then ur done, ur out, nothing will satisfy u.
Put on the chains of Love, ask Love to make u it's slave. Be a slave to Love. For the first time, give it all to Love. Lay it down, before it's to late.
U will be redeemed and forgiven and set free, but do it now before it's too late.



Go to the alter, this time announce to ur church how U've sinned against them and ask them for forgiveness. Tell them the truth, that u never knew Love. That it was all a big charade to cover the truth. Tell them ur ways have been evil and in vain because u rejected Love. Tell them u are a adulterer against Love. They will have compassion on u, and they will wrap their arms and prayers around u and lift u up. Do it before the wide path consumes u and takes u forever.
Repent, to Love.  Raise your standards in The ways u were taught. Go renew ur strength in Love. Tell Love ur ways r wrong and want the narrow path. 
Go repent before it's too late.
Ur back sliding will only be long enough for u to fall, then ur done, ur out, nothing will satisfy u.
Put on the chains of Love, ask Love to make u it's slave. Be a slave to Love. For the first time, give it all to Love. Lay it down, before it's to late.
U will be redeemed and forgiven and set free, but do it now before it's too late.

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Ignoring God's Voice

We hear from God, but do we listen and obey what He's telling us to do? "My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me." John 10:27. I don't always obey the Father's voice.

God showed me this week how my disobedience, hurts the Church. When I speak of God's Church I am not speaking of a physical location or denomination, I am reference people who are walking in Christ. His church.
Back to ok let me get back to the meat. This winter, as always, I had my boys go through their clothes  new things come in, old things go out. But this time, God said,  "Take the clothes to the Giving Closet (A special ministry that helps the church with physical needs). For weeks, I heard, take the clothes there. Did I listen? Nope, I thought of every excuse that came to mind:
It's going to take too much time, Does it really matter where I take the clothes? God really doesn't care where the clothes go-i'm still donating them not selling them for profit. Finally, I got so frustrated at seeing the clothes take up space. I threw them in the trunk and drove to the Goodwill-was on my way there anyways. Task complete. Yeah! I'm happy, husband is happy the clothes are gone.
This week, I get a call from my distraught sister, who found a young boy in desperate need for clothes and guess what? She thinks he's about the same size as my son. She also said that she's going to the Giving Closet.
The Giving Closet? Oh, my Lord. My heart stung bad-I directly disobeyed God. I ignored His voice. I had to confess the truth. I'm sorry I don't have anything to give, because I didn't obey God. Then shared the same story with her.
That wasn't the first time. I also failed to listen to God almost a year ago. This time was different, I allowed the snake to cause me to doubt God.
Several months ago, God put on my heart to write an article for a police wives support group. The article would be about how to keep a police marriage alive and well. Not many people understand what it's like to be married to a cop. The divorce rate is 75% among police families. This is 25% higher than national marriage stats. They also have the highest alcohol, abuse, and infidelity rates.

Since I've been married for 20 years and hubby's been a cop for the last 14 years, God knew something I didn't. Maybe it was the testimony I share with my husband, or the things we do to help keep our marriage strong and on track, or how God saved our marriage during a rough time in our history, or how God is the center of our marriage.

Whatever the purpose, I started to write, but then that evil snake (the devil) started on me, whispering things to me to bring me down: You don't know what your writing about, you're not going to help anyone, you're not a good writer, who cares what you have to say, what if you're wrong, etc....I didn't finish writing the article. I have a huge problem with fear of failure and that slimy snake knows it. So out of fear, my article was never published.
Couple weeks ago, one of the leaders of the police wives organization, emails me and tells me she's getting a divorce. STAB STAB STAB in my heart. I hate divorce, God hates divorce. This woman was our leader and encourager she's married to a successful cop, she went to Bible school. How could this happen?
I know I didn't cause the problems in their marriage. Divorce doesn't just happen over one day. However, I played a roll because God told me to write an article that she would have had to read and edit before distributing it to the rest of the women.
This got me angry. Very angry first at myself, then at the snake for playing tricks in my mind, and for me, listening to the lies.

Ok, that's been my disobedience testimony, let me move onto something to end this post on a high note. Something to  The only reason you're reading this blog, is because So God calls me to develop this web blog, I'm not sure why. Could it be to help me get over the fear of failure, to obey God, to help someone else. I don't know.
All I know is that when I hear God telling me to do something, as long as it lines up with the Word of God, then I better step up and do it.
 God tells us that sacrifice isn't what He wants, He wants us to obey him.

Saturday, April 6, 2013

Listen....can you hear God?

So you pray to God on a regular basis. Maybe you're just starting to pray, or maybe you're praying everyday, maybe you've been praying for over a decade. Does it sometimes seem like God isn't listening to your prayers? Or maybe you're just not asking the right way? Did you ever stop to think maybe God is trying to talk to you, but you're just not listening? Do you ever stop talking long enough to actually listen to what God has to say to you?
Yes, God talks with people. God doesn't just listen to prayers, He speaks to us also. It's called a relationship. In every healthy relationship there is two-way communication. Your relationship with God is no different. God isn't in some far off place where you can only reach him when you're at church or practicing some religious customs one day a week.
You have to be listening for His voice. Funny story, the first time I heard from God,  I told a family member that I heard God's voice, her response was to have me committed to a mental institution. Funny right. She was serious. That was the last time I would tell a family member that I talked to God. I kept this secret to myself for a long time. It wasn't until I met others who told me they also heard from God.
God speaking to people isn't a new thing. He talked with Adam and Eve, Abraham, Moses. The list of people who hear from God is in fact quite long.
God's voice is a still small voice, deep within you and the only way you can hear it, is if you stop talking and listen.
I suggest when you first start, do it silently-in your head. Just the two of you. It can be anywhere or anytime. God's available for us 24/7. You need to quiet your mind and focus on God. Be with Him in His presence. Maybe start by praising Him, tell him about your day, maybe even a question that's been on your heart to ask.
Turn off the media, phones, TV, internet, get to a quiet place and be still and listen.
God even commands us to be still. Psalm 46:10 says..."Be still and know that I am God."
If you would just sit still for 15 min and pray and then listen, you will hear. His voice isn't like any other voice. It doesn't nag, attack, condemn, it doesn't harp. It's a soft gentle voice, full of compassion and love, it encourages, leads, guides, helps and is extremely personal.
Will you be still and know God?